Artworks
London Calling
London Calling is an attempt to stay grounded in the world without losing track of the shifting streams of thought in an unfamiliar environment, and a personal autobiographical series to prove one's own futility and maintain a state of existence. Through this work, the artist explains the moment of thought that changes every month through video language.
London Calling은 낯선 환경에서 변화하는 사유의 흐름을 놓치지 않고 세상에 묶어두려는 시도이며, 스스로의 무쓸모를 증명하고 실존의 상태를 유지하기 위한 개인의 자전적 연작이다. 이 작업을 통해 작가는 매 달 변화하는 사유의 단초를 영상언어로 풀어낸다.
August
Irreplaceability
It's been about three weeks since I came to England. Wandering about looking for accommodation, time flew by in no time. I haven't been through London much yet, but I can feel that there is a division between good and bad London in me. I'm a person who's vulnerable to prejudice, so I wanted to slowly feel the city and make a first impression of it, but it was inside of me without knowing it.
The best thing about London is that the city is messy. A fallen tree is left unattended in the park, and the rain suddenly pours out. Grass grows through the collapsed walls. The buildings and the roads are all small. Even if I don't walk a lot, the scenery changes a lot. Perhaps because of this, the whole complex mass of people living here looks natural.
But isn't this a sense that I could feel more in other European countries? I definitely felt a similar feeling in France, Spain, and Italy. “Then what is a good feeling that can only be felt in London?”That's what I thought. Just like that's the reason why I chose to live in London.
Why do we like something even though there is room for replacement? Is irreplaceability necessary for the emotion of liking? Why do I want you to be here even though it doesn't have to be you?
Actually, there might be no special reason when we like something.
2022, 02:14, Single channel video
Song by Russo,Last Round
September
Missing Things
I like old movies.
It's more emotional.
Film photography, waiting, anxieties, and things that are no longer in our lives.
Every person is vulnerable to longing.
Still, in 2022, there is no cellular signal at the tube in London.
Then I keep looking through old pictures.
Even a little back in time, the subway is filled with missing.
I wish the world would be full of longing.
So now, I've printed out many things I don't have anymore and attached them on my way around.
It is impossible for a small being like us to endure this huge world without love,
A lot of little longing tells me so,
I wish they could fill my world.
Just like you said, I'm that weak.
I watched two old movies tonight, too.
Will this useless night remain as longing after a few months?
2022, 03:38, Single channel video
Song by Reed Pittman, Stay Lost with Me
October
Portrait
Friend just went back. The friend said that it is important to keep talking about me. No one knows what I'm thinking unless I tell them. I knew that, too. I just thought I didn't want to let the news out in the air that no one would be curious about!
The friend supported me in many ways. I knew it was a cheer. Maybe because I don't have a centre in my heart, I always have a strolling heart. A strolling heart doesn’t grow up. I also thought it would be nice to have a centre in my heart and be a person who supports others.
How lonely is a person who can't support others only by receiving support. In my small heart, I don't even have the slightest leeway to give to the person I love. I receive care from those I love, and I cannot return it. A small heart makes my love poor.
Love is important. I know that. I believe someone said that the vastness of the universe is made bearable only through love for small creatures such as us. I always think that I want to love many things around me. But a small heart like mine can't stand the vastness of the world.
The friend asked for a lot of news before leaving. Said want to hear from me. I don't know if my friend's words are sincere. But I wanted to endure the world, I wanted to love, and I wanted to centre my heart. And now decided to think I'm not talking in the air. Because I might be able to get the centre of my heart by recording myself.
2022, 01:40, Single channel video
Song by Yotam Agam, Positivity
November
Heaviness
These days, I wake up late every day.
Actually, I wake up early, but I get out of bed late.
I was lying down for a long time after I woke up.
What did I do? I don't know. Do you usually remember such things?
I opened my eyes around 9 o'clock, but when I got out of the bed it was already 1 o'clock in the afternoon. I didn't even drink the day before.
It's always like this these days.
Guilt always follows after things have been done. I’m like an idiot.
Listen, I had a dream yesterday, and it was really weird.
I was eagerly waiting for something.
Was it a girl who was my type?
Maybe it was a girl I met once.
Was she pretty?
I don't even remember what she looks like.
Anyway, I've been waiting for a long time.
She didn’t come even if I waited.
But I waited because I am patient.
I waited until sunset, but she didn't come.
I was really sad. I was really sad.
While I was waiting, I planned everything from dating to marriage.
But she didn't come.
All my plans have become useless.
When the sun went down and it got cold, so I gave up and woke up.
I'm going to leave all the lingering feelings behind me.
And then I woke up all of a sudden.
When I woke up, I didn't know what I was waiting for.
And then I lay down for a while. It's always like this these days.
2022, 03:31, Single channel video
Song by Kyle Cox, Happy on My Own / Castle Heist, Willpower